St Patricks Day is not about wearing Green
I am a first time mom
a boy mom
special needs mom.
and I do not have it all together.
He spent 5 months in the NICU.. those were the hardest 5 months of my life.He was born with a lot of medical conditions. We prayed and Prayed and he finally came home the summer of 2016.
My son is fed via G tube ..he has a very strict diet. I know he is healthier than i am.
What does this have to do with St Patrick’s Day?
My son was born a month early..his due date was St Patrick’s Day. I even got a shirt that said Due in March. We were hoping he would make it to March but he had other plans.
I feel mentally and physically exhausted
it does not help that I also struggle with depression and anxiety.
My son has appointments every week. He is developmentally delayed but learning and growing everyday.
He is developmentally delayed in Speech and other areas.
Enjoying the small victories
I am so thankful where he is today and how far he has come.
Inside I am sad because I feel like even though life is a little easier.. It will never be normal. Do not get me wrong I do not regret my son by any means. I love him dearly, unconditionally. It just gets hard sometimes to see what the future holds.
Three Years Later
He is a tough kiddo, he’s been through a ton of surgeries since he was 3 months old.
Most days i hold my head up high and do what i need to do. Other days it is hard to just get out of bed. I just want to pull the covers over my head and stay there and cry.
Trying my best and feel majority of the time I’m failing miserably.
I know the saying “If God brought you to it , He will bring you through it!” i truly believe that. My son is a true Miracle in every way. He keeps proving Doctors wrong even before he was born.
I want all the special needs moms to know I understand where you are coming from. Moms in general i know every family has things they are going through.
I remind myself things happen for a reason..he is my child for a reason. He is the greatest blessing.
My son is an amazing warrior.
I am proud of these last 3 years of being a mom. It has taught me so much about life and myself.
My son teaches me
🍀To be thankful
And so much more everyday.
So St. Patrick’s Day is not just a day to me.. It is a reminder that just because life isn’t wrapped perfectly in a box that I am strong, my son is strong and as long as we have each other That’s all that matters.
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